checking in

it has been quite sometime now.
at this time, i am working in the library, supposedly to study but was having problem with signing in this blog.
here we go

worth an entry i suppose.
so far, study is good. starting to get back to the right momentum before the final exam stage 4.
have had study plan. just need to be more discipline on how to get it done.

well, working in the library forces me to study and im glad about it. Allah always has the best plan for His servants and here i am now.

so what i need to do is just go through with iman n usaha. leave the rest for Him.
i know i am now 2 years late in graduating but shouldnt make it an excuse to stop trying. i know my success is somewhere there soon. i'll be getting there soon.

so, trying my very best to keep strong, to keep praying to Him.

my wishes so far for this year 2015 which 2 months left:
- passing my 4th year exam at first attempt
- do not think of marriage, or relationship
- getting my own money from working at least rm1000.

-chiaw-

reminding myself

You made me realise
life is too short
life is so temporary
life is to serve Allah as a servant
life is not about happiness but life is about to create a happy ending.

no one is forever happy

stop. think. and reevaluate.
be grateful of whatever you have now.
one day you may lose it. enjoy now. do not fret about the future. and the past.
the past is the past. it will grow out itself.
All has been written. Face it and grow with it.

what doesn't kill you make you stronger.

eternal love

the strength to the soul

Allah sebaik- baik tempat mengadu.

Rezeki itu luas, masing masing dikurniakan rezeki yang berbeza - apa? bila? bagaimana? itu kerja DIA. Semua dah ditentukan sejak kita masih dalam perut ibu. So worry less, just wait. For the time being, improve ourselves for better.

Redha dan syukur adalah ultimate goal untuk kekuatan hati.

Cinta manusia datang dan pergi, Cinta Allah itu ketenangan yang abadi.

Tiga benda yang kita tak dapat tentukan dalam hidup kita. HIDUP, MATI, JODOH.

Something are better left unsaid.


"Ya Allah. berikanlah pada kami ketenangan hati. Jauhkan kami daripada perasaan dengki, cemburu, marah. Buangkanlah titik hitam pada hati ini untuk mencapai ketenangan."

Amin. 

bosan

BOSAN


word. just a word.

but it deeply hurts.


every presences has its meaning. every day is a discovery.
bored means the end of any discoveries.
because there are boundaries. there are negative thoughts.

so appreciate while it stays.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder.

what i miss are what i've missed

 watching football match bersama geordies

 buat dunia sendiri :p 

 main bebola sejuk! sejukkk ngat! :P

 dah main kena kemho kejap :p

 bercuti dan menggila bersama rakyat jelata 

 posing poyo like the world is mine :P

 berkenangan di tempat wajib pergi walaupun tak tahu n tak minat.bergambar je penting :p

 retarded moment 

 act like a diva..walk like a superstar..but no one cares!hahah!

 mencuba makanan baru walaupun takut nak makan, telan jugak

 balik kelas, kemho di jalanan (ladang lembu sebenarnya sambil elak tahi tahi) :P

 outdoor ice skating..dan jumpa budak chumelll 

 ada masa turn into beach sat..but this is no good :p 

 socialising 

 rindukan kolej mara seremban (kms)

 menggigil kesejukan..bajet local taknak pakai coat, last2 merana sesorang

 menyambut hari kelahiran happy birthday!!!! :D 

 mencari arah tujuan. entah.

 pura pura atau kebenaran, hanya org yg snap je boleh bagtau selain kitorang :p 

 treat diri sendiri yang mereng 

 laluan tahi lembu yang dirindui 

 beautiful sky!we missed that. 

 makan pizza satu pound dua pound and microwave je 

 masak ikot suka hati..hari2 lebih kurang sama je :p 

 cope with the cold very cold weather! freezing cold 

masak walaupun tak terer..comot je lebih haha 

In so manic?

I've been having difficulty to get a peaceful sleep at night. Yes i feel sleepy, and i can initiate sleep. what my problem is i frequently wake up in the middle of the night. I usually fall asleep around 12am but then later at 2am terjaga, pkul 4am terjaga lagi, sampai laa subuh..

Tak sure apa yg membuatkan terjaga tapi memang terjaga lah. Then it takes me few minutes to hours to get back to sleep. It takes me hours when i start to look at my phone, being distracted by it pulak lagi. Tak boleh nak tipu, bila terjaga teringat ingat ke wajah hantu pun ada jugak. Mana taknye, tengah2 malam semua orang pun tido, tinggal kita je sorang2 yang hantu boleh datang melawat to say hi! (oh no!) :P

What worse, i try to disturb others as well untuk menemani masa-tidak-boleh-tidur-balik-selepas-terjaga itu. Nasib baik some friends in different time zone, xda la menggangggu sangat if tiba2 call them..but sometimes i called my mom. Kesian mama kena layan anak dia yg ada sleeping pattern disorder neh.

It is very tiring when it happens everyday! Then i start to find solution to it. Nak makan sleeping pills, takut pulak side effect karang tiba2 delusion hallucination sorg2. So i avoid pills.

Makanya saya pun tingkatkanlah bacaan doa saya sebelum tidur. Kadang2 sampai tertidur sebelum habis baca. It works. YES it works. Cuma still terbangun jugak lagi kejap2. Jadinya saya fikir this is not about kena kacau hantu ke apa ke, tak amal baca doa ke apa ke..This is something to do with MY SLEEP!

Then come to my last solution. I thought if i cover my eyes while sleeping, my eyes wont be able to terbukak sendiri untuk terjagakan saya tengah2 malam. Then I went out to buy a SLEEPING MASK/ EYE MASK. 

tell u what! IT REALLY WORKS! I EVEN GET A BETTER SLEEP!

bangun pagi rasa fresh di area mata tu, macam semacam yang bagus! Mungkin sebab mata kita tak bergerak banyak masa tidur, and you are really under peaceful sleep. Satu lagi, when u masked ur eyes, you are preventing any lights, and the brain sense pure darkness, releasing more melatonin, a hormone to induce sleep.

So those who having the same problem as me, under stress and susah nak tido, u can try this! It is simple and cheap though! :D